GUESS WHAT IT IS!!

Well, there is no mistaking!!  IT'S A BOY!!  My scanner is in Ohio, so I improvised with my phone.

No mistaking there!

 

This one is sideways! Oops!

  

Our Baby is totally relaxed!

Excuse all the shadows on the photos, the sun is shining through the window.  Of course, we don't have a name picked out...:)

A New Perspective?

Maybe so... I have never really been good at answering the phone and texts and I honestly just thought that was one of the things that made me who I am, but today I overheard my manager talking to Charter Foods people, in no way about me, that he couldn't stand when people don't answer the phone and that it was just plain rude.  I hope that's not what people think about me when I don't answer because I don't do it to be rude.
Actually, my personal philosophy is that I have my phone on me for 2 reasons: Sehara & Tim.  Now this has to extend to include my family because they are paying for it... BUT if I'm at work, driving, at home, on a date (okay, this list includes all of my time) then I don't feel obligated to respond.  I will glance at the phone every now and again to make sure Sehara's school/daycare or Tim hasn't called so I DO see when other people text or call me but by the time I get off work, I'm driving, getting Tim and kids, cooking, etc., and I just don't remember to check it again.
Tim is so much better at it.  He EVEN answers calls from unknown numbers.  So, sometimes, it's just best to call him.  
I'm going to try to work on this.  Maybe I do need to connect more with family and friends.

**I wrote this last night, but this morning I thought of another new perspective: Tim.
Sehara has been my number 1 priority since I was pregnant with her. Always.  To this day, granted I've only been married 2 months and with Tim several more months than that, I still say that she is #1, then I catch myself or think about it later and realize; you know, Tim is my priority too and how unfair that I have promised him to be by his side forever and he doesn't get that spot.  Fact is, he simply can't take it alone.  Seems that (as of right now) they have to share.  So, my number 1 priority is my FAMILY.

Oh, crap.  Hold on... isn't God supposed to be #1?  Oops, well... (haha) let's just make it clear that other than Him, my family is ( I don't know if this is a true statement because I am working on it).

I'm So Tired

I haven't ever really had a hard time sleeping before, normally I'm just fine and I thrive on 5 or so hours but dang... I wake up all the time throughout the night and now it takes a while before I can even fall asleep due to restless leg syndrome.  To top that off, I had the craziest baby dream last night, one that I won't share because it was too darn sad. Ugh, oh well.

Fortunately for me, I have been reading a friend/acquaintance's blog almost since she first made it and she is the biggest researcher on things to buy. She has inspired me to really think about a lot of things, even if I don't have the resources to implement them, i.e., better foods, baby stuff, green ideas.  She talks a lot about gDiapers, has for years, literally.  They are a "hybrid" diaper, so to speak.  I want to go with more of a cloth diaper for the rest of my babies and as of right now the best option is this wonderful gDiaper option (I have been obsessively comparing them to other brands for months!).  I can say this: I will not use disposables!  Not only are they not the best option for babies skin, they are way more expensive than cloth diapers and create too much waste.  To each her own though.  I used them with Sehara and never thought twice about it.  We have discovered that the cost for these diapers is a lot up front but compared to overall money spent on diapering, for all children, it's nothing. 

I can say that if anyone is looking for baby gift ideas, this is what I want...;)  {This being only one option as there are teeny, small, medium, and large size gpants too AND USED IS JUST AS GOOD).  They are really cool.  There is the gpant (sizes T, S, M, L) and a snap-in liner that goes with it (the liner is not plastic and is breathable for baby's bottom and it protects the gpant from getting wet/dirty).  There are three options for inserts (inserts absorb pee/ hold poo and lay on the liner): gcloth inserts (size S, M/L), the gflapper (more soft & natural cloth), and the disposable insert.  We plan on using 97.33% cloth, and using the disposable for traveling only.  I'm pretty excited about it.

Ok. 'Nuff about that.
My little brother Michael surprised me today.  He put on his facebook status that "whoever like this will get rated out of 100".  Not that anyone should be rated, but I liked it anyway.  He puts on my profile "100+". Aww!!  I adore my siblings so much.

Happy Monday!

You know, Monday used to be my absolute favorite day of the week!  I woke up at 6:30 to get Sehara (and roommate's kiddo) up and ready (okay, really, they get themselves ready, I just stand there and make sure they are on schedule) and I felt really good. Wow...I haven't felt this awake since my last semester in college. Seriously.  Maybe this will continue?

Well, I have good work news!  After arguing a few more times with my manager AND acting like a 5-year-old and ignoring his every word (works every time), he FINALLY apologized to me and I to him (for the ignoring thing, lol) and he has treated me with respect since.  Now, we've only worked one day together in this week and I'm prepared to take into account mood-swing days--on both parts and other days like that, but I will not accept disrespect and being talked down to.

I have today off and I have no intentions of going anywhere near there today, or answering the phone if they happen to call (not likely because they know how sick I have been lately), DECLINE!!!


I tried changing my name on my bank account today and it turns out that I am not able to without closing it.  This is all because I opened it when I was 17 years old and my mom had to be on the account as the adult.  If I change my name on it, she has to sign a card too, and if I try to take her off: I can't.  I have to close that account and open another one.  I can't put Tim on it without him there (duh), but I wouldn't be able to anyway because my mom's on it too.  SOOO, they said in order for me to change my name for now I had to promise to close the account when I moved.  Well, that sucks but I suppose it's for the better.  There isn't even a branch in Ohio so I'll just have Tim put me on his account at his credit union (I hear they're better anyhoo).


Another big thing happening is that we have been looking into more healthy foods.  Like is organic really better for you or what are GM foods, and do they really impact a persons health, or even- are just regularly grown fruits and vegetables just as good as organic?  Then there is the environmental aspect and animal rights aspect, but those aren't as important to us as what we're putting in our bodies and our children's bodies, though it is a factor in deciding (and it's still important, of course).  Tim sees the animal rights debate in another light though: his perspective is that if people go to jail for dog fighting, then why aren't the industries getting in trouble for the way they treat animals?  I started watching Food, Inc. to see if it would be worth a family viewing, and I think it is!  It's just a start though, we have so much more research to do to figure it out.  Public Library, here I come!!

I got my baby back yesterday from the beach.  That little girl came back with some color on her!!  She was so pale and looked almost sick mostly due to seasonal allergies but the little beauty is making a comeback.  I really missed her.  So much in fact, that I made all of us cuddle last night.  Tim wasn't thrilled but he complied (secretly I know he was happy to have her here too).  She spent the 30 minutes before bedtime showing us all the shells she collected and the activities she played.  :)

Speaking of babies, I took a 17 week picture but it didn't turn out well so I'm not posting it.  I have found that I love to wear dresses right now.  I can't take this one off just yet, I adore it and it feels so good on my body.  I think I felt the little one moving last night, or something of the sort.  I've been feeling flutters (and I'm pretty sure it's not gas, maybe) and there was a stronger jab last night.  I also believe that my uterus is almost to my belly button but it isn't really sticking out much, maybe a back baby??  I hope not because that sounds like it hurts.

I'd like to post more on my relationship with Tim, and how we're adapting to each other but that will have to wait for now.  I promised him I would take his lunch to campus and eat with him.  Maybe we'll go in the newer Fee Glade and sit? :)

Sickness

My mom took Sehara to the beach for spring break and just in time, too.  A day after she's gone I started feeling a tickle in my throat and for me that means Strep Throat -8 out of 10 times.  That night was horrible.  All night I kept waking up because my throat was on fire and I must swallow when I sleep because that was the worst feeling EVER...and I had to work the next day.  Great. 
So, Thursday Tim wakes me up to take him to work and ugh... I felt like crap.  A little later I had to go in work as well.  I got there and they took one look at me and basically told me to leave and go to the doctor.  I went home and called the doctor, and they got me in.  Turns out, being pregnant I can't do much except lay down, take Tylenol and drink buckets of water if it's a virus.  The strep test came back negative but they sent if off to the lab to be 100% sure.  My doctor told me to stay in bed for two days.  At this point, my throat feels almost fine so I know it's not strep; which means it's the virus. {insert great news-- I still weigh in at 124/125 lbs, even though I look 130-135!!!}
I don't know how I made it to Richmond yesterday and I definitely don't know how I made it back to Berea, but as soon as I picked Timothy up I was done.  I couldn't even walk by myself.  The worst part was getting hungry because I know that if I don't eat when I'm hungry the chances of me throwing up increase significantly. 
So the night passes and I wake up with no sore throat and my face felt fine (it hurt like crazy from pressure) but the only problem was my head and now my husband is sick.  I can't sit up without my head spinning, can barely roll over.  When Tim gets sick, he just gets a little sore throat and a huge headache, even when he had the swine a few years back.  That was at 8:00 a.m., and now, at 4:00 p.m., we are to the point where we can sit up. :) Seems it is getting better.  I have really strayed from taking any medication since I found out we were expecting, but the Tylenol was a must today.  My OB/GYN actually said "no" to it during the first trimester, but we're in the clear now.
Anyway I keep spacing out and I'm getting incredibly hungry again so... until next time.

I Got Married!!

I got married the 14th, on Valentines Day. Isn't that just so sweet? We did the courthouse thing. It was so peaceful... it was just he and I and Sehara, along with my parents and his mom and grandmama. We did pictures, courtesy of Selah Photography and went to O'Charley's to eat. I sooo wanted a steak and got it. Overall, it was the calmest experience I have had in a while. His family adores Sehara and I, as does mine, and I couldn't ask for much more.

Right now Sehara and Tim are at Church and I'm sitting on my bum, experiencing a Huge headache. I've been getting them daily for about a week now. No fun.

Work has upgraded my hours to 20 a week (from 10). I suppose I'm part-time now. The thing is with them, that they send people home early all the time to "save labor". I got 5 hours cut off my week from going home early yesterday. Regardless, it's more than before. I can say that it stinks that I'll have to move out soon due to disrespect (first excuse), then the owners walking away from the house (2nd excuse) because of their financial situation, when I'll finally be able to give them more money monthly. But, I don't think that's going to happen (giving them my $$) because of the lack of reasons I was given. In turn, I think I was the friend that was disrespected the most. I keep care of this house better than they ever did, with a dog. I never thought I would see my great friend send me a text saying we were kicked out, without talking to me first. I think communication is the key to all healthy relationships, and I learned that the hard way. I have been questioning what kind of friend I have invested in the past three years to be smacked in the face. Did I ever really know her?

I called her right away and had to probe every corner of the conversation to get even the littlest reply. You can send those texts, but you can't talk?!? One of the biggest problems, besides lack of respect, was that the utility bill was high (ok, call me so we can discuss it). I don't get that I am the one to get the brunt of the blame when the roommate downstairs leaves the lights on constantly, they hadn't been turned off in three months until I went down to the garage to do it. And she leaves the garage door open all day in the friggin dead of winter, along with using that door as her primary leaving/entering door. Who does that? Yeah, we three upstairs use our fair share of utilities, but we definitely do not abuse it. We are very conservative in that aspect because we know that times are hard. To top it off, I was literally depositing all of my paychecks, minus $20 for gas, into her account for rent/utilities. We both knew that once I graduated it wouldn't be the whole amount, but when the jobs got rolling, it would eventually balance out.

On a more positive note, Sehara has started calling Tim "daddy". We both never asked her to do it. The day we got married, she just started doing it. It's still really awkward, but I guess we'll get used to it. I wonder if the grandparents had anything to do with it? hmm. Married life is so nice. It's not much different, because we were spending all of our time together beforehand, just now it's accepted...lol. We've been going through all of our things to figure out this moving stuff, trying to get rid of the junk for now. I've accumulated quite a bit since I have been on my own. It's my pride that wants to keep it all, I earned it, ya know?

Sick Girl

I have a sick girl home from school today. She has a little stomach bug, threw up all over the place last night. She already feels better now. We're just enjoying a nice Barbie movie right now.
I got a polar pop this morning. They only cost 75 cents, but that's part of my laundry money and I know I shouldn't, but I need one (want one).
This blog is boring, because I really don't do much anymore these days. Life stinks a little.
Oh, Tim and I watched "Wanted" last night, I didn't finish it because I chose sleep instead. It was an online movie, so it took a long time to buffer. That's so lame. I would like to go out and get a few movies, but I don't have the money for it now.
Anywho, that's about it for now. :)

Puppy Pictures :)

Here is my pup, Abraham Lincoln (Pugh). Enjoy...he's shedding right now so I'm not enjoying too much. We're training him to not get on the furniture now, but this is when he did. He's usually pretty good, just chews on things and the occasional accident. We got this big puppy in November, and he was about 4 months old then, so he's about 7 months now. He's funny, really and super lazy, which we enjoy immensely.

Graduation/Job Searching

It's official!! I graduated Berea College with a Bachelor of Arts in Physical Education, minor in Dance. That's pretty exciting, but now I need a good job. The only thing is that I can't really find that good of one right now, because Tim and I will be moving in May, so what would be the point? Currently, all I can find as far a work goes is Taco Bell. It's a job, so I'll take it, for now. I'm not getting many hours there, and I really suck at it so I'm not sure why they hired me (mostly because I get ten hours a week).
I'll be getting married in 11 days. We're doing the courthouse destination wedding thing because we're both not all for attention but we will have a reception in May. I do like a good party. :)
Most of the days I lounge around the house and sleep. I have discovered that I am super good at sleeping. My dog keeps me company all day long though, so I am not completely lonely. He's a little brat. He chews EVERYTHING. At first we let him do a lot of things (not chewing), but like getting on the furniture and stuff, but since the other day and his lets-throw-up-and-pee on the couch episode, no more furniture. I discovered today that it's really inconvenient for me because when he's on the bed or couch, I know what he's doing. Now, I just frantically look around and search for him and whatever his chew toy victim may be.
Oh, I tried the roommate thing while living in this house (besides my roommate downstairs whom I never see) and it didn't work out too well. She was nice, but she brought bugs and a second dog in the house and that didn't fly with the owner. She made me kick her out, which was one of the hardest things I have had to do. I felt absolutely lousy after that. As I should.
Speaking of bugs, so the roommate downstairs suggested we get the house sprayed, and I was all for it, turns out her dad did it and she came upstairs with him. I think she did just to check out the cleanliness of my portion of the house, that hurts my feelings...I am the cleanest person I know. She reported back things I had in my room to the owner, who I used to consider my best friend (I had a wedding dress given to me by another friend and she knew about it, along with the other dog in the back room--that night I was forced to kick the other girl out and Lord knows what else). I felt totally betrayed and have decided to put my efforts of friendship into other people.
Oh, and a random thought, I had a dream today, and I was eating a cookie in this dream. I woke up craving that cookie. We have none in the house so I settled for chocolate.

Summer News

Needless to say, it's been an amazing summer. Well, I am as broke as a joke, but that won't change until I am out of college, so I am not worried too much about it. :)
I met this wonderful guy named Tim. He is literally the sweetest man in the world and I think I have met my equal and it's amazingly easily to say as much.
Good news about my classes is that I passed with an A and a B. Which is amazing for me.
I have a friend that has been staying in and out of my house and she is pretty cool so we're having a blast with that.
That's all for now.