Friday, April 17, 2015

Thrift Store Finds

Tim texted me before he left work and asked if I would like to go to the thrift store. No. I am not a thrift store kinda girl. BUT!!! If the hubs wants to go, then by golly, I'll go. 


I'm so happy I did too, and here's why: 




Yes. Oversized sweaters and a fuzzy pillow it smells a little like dog but I can fix that (with my finger on my chin).

I like to look at the picture frames and fabric scraps. Buddy oh boy, do you remember that horrible experience I had with purchasing my first homemade cloth diaper? The mermaid diaper that made my heart stop and my eyes turn into hearts. That diaper! And when it got to me it looked like crAp? How she bubbled out the liner and made the snap on tail too little?!?! MY EYE CAUGHT THE SAME TAIL FABRIC. I die. But it was in a huge bundle of fabric (in a taped up ghetto ice bag where you can't see much) and costed $14.99 boo! But I bought that stuff anyway because I couldn't live with myself if I didn't. You know they put weird fabric in there too, in order to sell it! But oh my, the best fabrics were in there! Pretty daisy laces, regular lace, primitive fabrics, girly fabrics, shiny tulle!!!! What a good find!

Ugh!

Here's the diaper I ordered and the one I received, that tail is the fabric I found!:



Anyway, I'm excited! 



Monday, April 13, 2015

Yellow Springs


We spent two hours in Yellow Springs this past weekend. It's very similar to my college town; Berea College in KY. And it's maybe 5 minutes down the road.

We had to get Carson a new shirt because we dressed him warmly. Tie dye to blend in with the crowd.

I'd love to embrace my inner hippie and move to Yellow Springs, have some chickens and grow a garden. 

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Let Her Not Go

"Take fast hold of instruction; let her not go: keep her; for she is thy life" {proverbs 4:13} 

A parenting verse that I haven't studied yet but I couldn't help think of it while I've been laying on the couch, failing at everything today.

This baby sure knows when her momma needs some lovin. I'm 80% sure that I have an ear infection, just have been wondering around in a daze because I can't hear out of one ear. And the result of that being the other ear is extremely sensitive to sound, more than usual (which is already bad). And am most eagerly awaiting to be finished with orders from my small shop, along with my models' packages, and other various duties required of me today.

Friday, April 3, 2015

I Love Myself

Christian, Wife, Momma, Hard Worker, Friend, Crazy, Aggressive, "Sweet", Bipolar, Happy. Just a few words to describe who I am, but not enough to even begin to know what makes me... Me. 

I demand honesty and loyalty, hold grudges then let them go. I stay up late to get stuff done and wake up early to start new things.

I stink at social media, answering texts & messages, updating pages, etc. 

I believe in sticking to what you've started, change, and always furthering your mind by learning. I don't believe in luck or any superstitious stuff, including karma.

I truly love myself, and that's ok.


Saturday, January 3, 2015

A Year Without Meat



I give up something every year for just a year. I get a lot of "what's the point" or "I could never do that". The point is, "I can"; I want to challenge myself without making permanent changes. So, yes, it does matter, knowing that I can have a semblance of self control for a year, a whole year, well, it's quite liberating, not to mention empowering!

I had a hard time coming up with it. I thought about giving up Facebook, but that wouldn't work with my Etsy stuff, I have already given up chocolate one year (let's face it...that was THE HARDEST). I asked Tim and he threw around a few ideas. Then I thought, why not give up t.v.? Like, the whole family gives it up!

He said no. Absolutely not. Ha! But, then he surprised me and agreed to one of my earlier suggestions: meat. The one that he so casually dismissed.

Let me tell you something about Tim. He's a meatatarian. He loves to eat meat. I really think that he is addicted to it. One of his favorite meals is this stir-fry that I make. It's like 80% beef and chicken with minimal vegetables.

I can go a long time without meat. I am really just not that interested in having a main meat meal.

Alrighty, I'm done typing "meat". It's getting weird.

So that's what we as a family are giving up. I'm personally giving up t.v. for the year. I understand there are going to be times when I have to go to the other room so the family can watch a movie, but I was really hoping that if I gave it up, the hubs and kids would follow suit and be kind not to watch it when I'm home.

So far, it has been going well. We have been lounging around the living room with blankets thrown about and books in hand.

I hope that by not watching television, or movies (or clips, videos and such), I'll be able to read 50 books this year, I'll get accomplished on Etsy and this blog!

I have been enjoying my soda -which is what I gave up last year, along with not being passive-aggressive! I would like to think that I will continue to be assertive! So, fingers crossed and mouth shut!

I want to add that I don't think this makes us vegetarians! We, of course, don't know how we're going to feel about it at the end of the year, but we DO believe animals are for eatin'! Well, not all of them...and the quality of them has gone downhill. We are going to be eating animal products still, just not the meat (or fish).

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

About Failure When You're Trying To Lose Weight


I've been doing the 21 day fix program from BeachBody (I'm sure you've seen the ads...). I've been doing really well at it! I have spent my whole days anticipating the nightly workouts, wondering how I'll respond to them. I have cut my eating a lot, fitting my meals into the little containers that come with the workout. I gulp down my Shakeology for breakfast, and it really isn't bad (though the chocolate is a little bitter). I don't really have time for the fancy recipes that come with it. I am focused on checking these things off my to do list, and changing my lifestyle.

I paid a ton of money for the program, because I knew if I spent it, I would see it through. It's as simple as that. That motivates me: not wasting money. The end. I will see it through because I paid for it!

Just under 2 weeks into the program, I popped my lateral meniscus out. I don't even know how you can pop it out? I had to go to the chiropractor 3 times in a week for him to put it back? I didn't injure myself working out, I was dancing with babies. The irony.

The first night of working out with an injured knee wasn't bad. It was a little tender but I was fine. My husband asked me to not go hardcore for fear of further injury (we didn't know what I had done at this point, this workout was the same night as the pop-out). He was right, I modified some moves and finished.

The next day I couldn't walk. I couldn't put weight on my knee. I couldn't straighten it or bend it or twist it. This is when I go to the chiro and he provides immediate relief (though it still was sore each day for 2 weeks + sliding/twisting my knee was not do-able).

I spend a lot of money for this program and I am literally not able to do more than half the workouts. I am not able to even start the cardio workouts with out getting upset because I can't do the first few moves, and I'm feeling like a fraud for using my own modifications.

I get past it and complete each of them anyway. I do. Yep. I even throw in some extra ab fix workout d.v.d.'s because I can't do the cardio and I don't feel like I'm pushing myself. But I'm feeling motivated, working real smart on these workouts, but not real hard!

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Here's where the failure comes in. I gained a pound back. How? Even when I'm following the meal plan, and doing 2 workouts a night. It's not muscle gain, don't even go there. Cardio plays a huge role in weight loss for me, and it takes time. Without the cardio, it's going to be very hard for me to lose that weight.

Then, one night, I gave up. I quit. I thought that I was ready to do the cardio again, and I couldn't. I turned everything off and took a really long shower. Really long. I told myself that this isn't me. When things get tough, I work through it. I thrive when others can't complete their tasks, I step in and take charge. It's damage control, it's what I'm good at. SO WHY?

I cried, I told myself to go to bed. Then I decided that I'm not a quitter. I popped in a yoga fix d.v.d., and finished then popped in the ab fix and finished that. I had been doing upper body most nights because I see results fast, and frankly, I'm not trying to fly anywhere.

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Skip forward the 2+ weeks of healing and here I am. I went for a run. It was heaven! It hurt but I pushed myself and kept going. I was relieved to be able to have the physical outlet.  I only slowed down and headed home when I felt my knee begin to get sore.

My point is, losing weight is hard. I feel like a failure most nights. It takes time, and it is not going to be easy or fast. There is no magic pill, no magic shake, no quick anything that really helps you. It's about perseverance, changing the way you look at weight loss, motivations, and self image. We all have these bodies that we are in charge of, we are responsible for what's going in them, we are responsible for how much physical activity we get; we HAVE to take care of it, MIND INCLUDED.

It takes 30 minutes, 30 MINUTES each day (heck, even less sometimes; start with 5 minutes) to shape your mind and body. That's it, just one day at a time, 30 minutes of your day. That's all.

Do it. Don't give up.

Monday, December 1, 2014

Craft Bazaar and Christmas Tree

I had a great time  at the Craft Bazaar. I was definitely NOT prepared for it though. About a month ago, I started working on bows, but then I got so busy with Etsy and work that I couldn't finish them. Tim ended up making my headband holder, and painting it. He didn't have time to build a base so it stood against the table. I covered piping in tulle and hung a banner from both sides. It fell over a few times. Whoops!

I don't have a picture of it!

I have teamed up with some BeachBody coaches to do a headband and hair-tie giveaway to women who commit to a workout group! Getting my name out there and helping other moms! I want to do collaborations with other small businesses and direct sale business ladies.

We put our Christmas tree up and it's lovely. Just lovely. Looking through all of our things that have been in storage for so long is such fun!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Just What I Needed To Hear

I have some words in my heart. I dunno, do you ever just sit around and feel all antsy like you have to get up and do something or write and get it off your chest and be done with it?

So, this post isn't much of consequence, but it has to be done.

I have been craving a song lately. In my head, I can catch the last hint of sound and that one word that makes it THAT song. I heard the tail of it on the radio a few days back (what luck!). I just unpacked my c.d.'s {again} a few days back and came across all my Shawn McDonald c.d.'s! What a delight they have been! I wrote the first few sentences on this post, then had to take Carson to his room, came back downstairs, flipped the case open and there it was! The song! It's Satellites from The Dave Matthews Band. It was right there all along. Of course.

I was invited to join a Beach Body workout support group (again and again and again) and decided this time that I would try it out. I have until the end of the month to choose a program to purchase and it starts in December. I wonder if I will find one that I like? Not to mention there was someone else in the group that I don't care to see updates on. :/

That was passive aggressive. But I don't mean it to be (but it still is). I'm not taking it back, though.

I have been feeling really low lately. I have had severe headaches everyday. I think it's from my glasses. I may need to get my eyes checked again. BUT then I went without watching t.v. for 2 days and I didn't get a headache the following day. Maybe it's everything.

I have been feeling chilled to the bone today. I have not been able to get warm. I turned the thermostat up to 76, I'll leave it there for half an hour and shut the whole thing off. We have agreed to keep it low this winter. Even though I'm cold and low, winter is still my favorite!

I was telling Tim that we should put my microsuede (or some fancy name) weather curtains up around the door to keep all the cold air out. Then I told him that we'd have to take them down if anyone came over because that's kind of hillbilly.

My littles started their daycare today. I had a longer shift than usual and was relieved to see them finally. Now I'm all tired and grouchy and they are hungry and tired, but not quite ready for bed. Recipe for disaster!

This photo just caught my eye:


I realized not long ago, that these photos are gorgeous, but they don't capture Madeline's personality.

SO, I'm hoping that a cup of coffee, then hot cocoa, then a tall glass of water will get me out of this funk. Tim gets home in an hour so life will be o.k./

P.S., just listening to that song twice, I feel so much better! I guess it's just what I needed.